'Wanting to do other things besides writing'

I'd be ready to write and then I'd have not wanted to do it because I'd think that I'd screw up the writings instead of having them make sense and actually have them change me. I'd put it off further by having/choosing to postpone writing with pictures of doing something else that I would rather want to do like 'reading' and or 'playing games'. Also When I'm writing I'd fidget with things Like 'cutting a piece of paper with scissor' Swing on the chair' 'Touch a lamp that i've touched more then 5 times in a row ' Stare out the window' 'Look at other things on my desktop' 'Get distracted by cars going past' 'Swing my leg' 'turn around and look at pictures on the wall'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to distract myself by cutting a piece of paper with scissor as a distraction while trying to write

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to distract myself by swinging on the chair as a distraction from me trying to write

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to distract myself by touching a lamp continuously as a distraction from me writing

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to stare out the window watching cars go past allowing it to be a distraction from me writing

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to distract myself by looking at others things on my desktop instead of doing what I am spose to be doing which is Writing

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get distracted by cars going past while I am trying to write

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to distract myself from writing by swinging my leg on a chair when I'm trying to write

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to continuously turn around and not face the screen when writing

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to play games a as a distraction from writing

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to read instead of writing, so I can be distracted from writing, and be lost in reading without having to think about writing where I continue reading and not remembering about what I have to do which is write because its part of my whole process as writing myself to freedom

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to choose playing a game over first writing myself to freedom

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to postpone writing when I decide to actually write then go ahead and postpone it by trying to put it off and do other things like reading and playing games

I commit myself to stop postponing my writings and actually have a certain time of day to do actually write myself out daily on things I want to change in my life

I commit myself to stop getting distracted when in the middle of writing

When and as I see myself putting my writings off for wanting to instead do other things like reading and playing games I stop and I breath. I realise that my writings are an essential part of my process that needs to be done daily for my process

When and as I see myself getting distracted in the middle of writing I stop and I Breath.. I direct myself to continue writing and I don't stop until all points are covered for what i'd want to change in my daily life